Dec 30, 2008
TaGged!!!
What I was doing 10 years ago: fighting with my brothers, and playin softball, hangin out with my best buds, and just bein a girl....well kinda haha
Five things on my to-do list today: make it through work, find something to do so im not so bored at work, go home, make some dinner, look for info for school.
Snacks I like: Peanut Butter M&m's , Sunflower Seeds, Otter Pops, Pretzels, and Popcorn.
Places I've lived: Riverdale Utah............
Five things I would do if I had billions: Pay off all of mine and my family's debts and give them some, go to school, buy a house, and save it have a HUGE wedding when i find him. And.....share with anyone that needs it.
People I want to know more about: My grandma, Pete, My parents, my little brother Gus.
Dec 26, 2008
*sNoW*
So i think that i really want to learn how to snowboard! I think it would be so much fun. I keep saying I want to learn how but I never do anything about it and I'm pretty sure this is the year! I'm going to buck up and stop bein a wuss and just do it! If any of you have any tips please let me know.
I hear the first time is pretty rough and that you fall a lot but thats a givin with me. I don't know if i should just rent everything for the first couple of times or scope out KSL and find a good deal...well see! Ill keep ya posted!
I hear the first time is pretty rough and that you fall a lot but thats a givin with me. I don't know if i should just rent everything for the first couple of times or scope out KSL and find a good deal...well see! Ill keep ya posted!
Dec 22, 2008
Christmas!
So tonight i went to FHE with my singles ward and everyone brought some presents for a family in the area that weren't able to afford a Christmas this year and we wrapped them and took them to em! the kids were already asleep so we weren't able to see their reaction to everything but the mom was so gracious for everything and every time someone brought in a bag she would just cry and say thank you. You could really tell how much they needed this. When we walked in to their house you could just see how little they had and i just felt so bad. But the parents were both just so happy.
It made me really grateful for all that i have and after seeing how little they had i felt bad that i wasn't giving more.. i only gave 3 shirts for one of the little boys.
I am so blessed!! My parents took me Christmas shopping and i got quite a bit compared to these boys...i mean when i was their age, we got tickets to go to Disneyland.
I am so blessed and love my parents for all that they have sacrificed for me and my brothers! They are the greatest!
Just remember that the best gift is the gift of giving!
MerRy chRisTmaS eVeRyonE
It made me really grateful for all that i have and after seeing how little they had i felt bad that i wasn't giving more.. i only gave 3 shirts for one of the little boys.
I am so blessed!! My parents took me Christmas shopping and i got quite a bit compared to these boys...i mean when i was their age, we got tickets to go to Disneyland.
I am so blessed and love my parents for all that they have sacrificed for me and my brothers! They are the greatest!
Just remember that the best gift is the gift of giving!
MerRy chRisTmaS eVeRyonE
Dec 20, 2008
Life
Its sad when people you know become people you knew...when you can walk right past someone like they were never a big part of your life…how you used to be able to talk for hours and now you can barely even look at them with your wanting to cry...but i guess its like people always say...life goes on...you meet new people and make new memories...and pray you never have to go through that kind of heart ache again....
Dec 19, 2008
Fairy Tale!
I hate boys. I HATE them. I hate that they can be so deceiving. I hate how they can make you feel amazing and like you are worth the world, then the next day they can just DROP YOU like you mean nothing to them. They make you feel so typical like you were never anything special to them. Sometimes they even go as far as to make you feel like they never knew you...
I'm used to typical words and typical actions. I'm used to: "you're beautiful" "You're so much fun to be around." I'm used to: hold my hand, kiss me, tell me what I WANT to hear. Typical.
BUT EVERY ONCE IN A WHILE I fall for the FLUFF and I fall in love, and I am made to believe that the guy is in love with me back. "I love you. I want to go to the temple with you. I promise well be together FOREVER." THEN THE NEXT DAY THEY DUMP ME! FOREVER MY ***.
I have a hard time understanding why I was worth leaving. How could I feel SO MUCH for him, and he feels NOTHING at all? Why is he leaving when he should be fighting to KEEP ME if I am everything he says I am. HE SAID I WAS AMAZING AND BEAUTIFUL. WHAT ELSE DO YOU NEED? WHY ARE YOU LETTING GO? Why wasn't I worth fighting for? Why am I not good enough when you led me to believe I was?
I have a hard time believe words that he said... because he left. He NEVER loved me. Because to me, real love is eternal. So he never loved me because he has given up. I WAS NOT EXTRODINARY ENOUGH TO KEEP AROUND.
I'm sick of being just ANOTHER ONE OF THOSE GIRLS. The one that you can take on dates and show off and kiss and WHATEVER. THEN THE NEXT DAY, YOU CAN GO OUT WITH WHOEVER YOU WANT! I'm feeling objectified!!! YEAH! GO AHEAD! INTRODUCE ME TO YOUR ENTIRE FAMILY! MAKE ME FALL IN LOVE THEM! TREAT ME LIKE A GIRLFRIEND... but you would never call me one!
Because that gives you the freedom to run off with the next Barbie who flutters her eyelashes at you! I am nothing more than convenience to you. But I still stick around. WHY? (other than I'm an IDIOT) Because you make me feel SPECIAL! (get ready for some serious sarcasm) I shouldn't need a title or ANY type of commitment to make me happy! RIGHT? I shouldn't have to be upset when the guy I'm falling in love with goes on dates with other girls on Sat. nights. Its NO BIG DEAL right? He likes me... because he SAYS SO!!! SAYS SO! WELL I DONT BELIEVE IT! IF YOU LIKE ME YOU WANT TO BE WITH ME! SO SAY YOU DONT LIKE ME AND MOVE ON WITH IT! Because I like you to much to let YOU go, and I WOULD fight for you. I hate that I feel temporary. I feel typical.
You tell me that I'm beautiful, and amazing, and smart. I don't want to be told that I'm beautiful anymore. Because I'm used to it. IT DOESNT EFFECT ME ANYMORE. And Because you say it to every girl. And I don't want to be EVERY GIRL typical beautiful in your eyes. You say that I am a REALLY good kisser, but SHE can take your breath away too. WELL THAT IS LAME! I THINK YOU ARE THE HOTTEST GUY WHO HAS EVER TRIED TO DATE ME AND I HAVEN'T FELT SO MUCH AUTOMATIC CHEMISTRY AS WHEN I FIRST KISSED YOU IN A LONG TIME! AND I MEAN IT! ...I am just typical to you. I don't want to be just some beautiful girl in your eyes. I want to be THE MOST BEAUTIFUL AND MOST AMAZINGLY INCREDIBLE GIRL YOU HAVE EVER MET.
...But I know I'm not and I'm sorry I allowed myself to believe otherwise.
I guess I'm sick of being told how WONDERFUL I am and being put up on a pedestal, especially a pedestal that falls so fast. "YOURE BEAUTIFUL. I LOVE YOU. BLADY BLADY BLAH BLAH... DROP." -boys are lame. I don't want to be put up on a pedestal any more, because I have a fear of pedestals now. They are no more than wishful thinking. I don't want someone who puts me on a pedestal. I want someone who puts my heart in the sky. (I AM CHEEZY!!!) Someone Who makes me feel free and not confined to my BEAUTY or my AMAZINGNESS. But someone who loves me unconditionally, even if I'm stupid or ugly sometimes!
I want someone to make me feel not so typically pretty and typically amazing like ALL of the other girls he's ever dated. I don't want to be the girl who can be replaced. I want him to tell me that I am THE ONLY ONE HE WOULD EVER WANT TO BE WITH BECAUSE HE COULD NOT IMAGINE ANYONE WITH MORE WONDER OR BEAUTY THAN ME.
....And I want him to mean it...
I'm used to typical words and typical actions. I'm used to: "you're beautiful" "You're so much fun to be around." I'm used to: hold my hand, kiss me, tell me what I WANT to hear. Typical.
BUT EVERY ONCE IN A WHILE I fall for the FLUFF and I fall in love, and I am made to believe that the guy is in love with me back. "I love you. I want to go to the temple with you. I promise well be together FOREVER." THEN THE NEXT DAY THEY DUMP ME! FOREVER MY ***.
I have a hard time understanding why I was worth leaving. How could I feel SO MUCH for him, and he feels NOTHING at all? Why is he leaving when he should be fighting to KEEP ME if I am everything he says I am. HE SAID I WAS AMAZING AND BEAUTIFUL. WHAT ELSE DO YOU NEED? WHY ARE YOU LETTING GO? Why wasn't I worth fighting for? Why am I not good enough when you led me to believe I was?
I have a hard time believe words that he said... because he left. He NEVER loved me. Because to me, real love is eternal. So he never loved me because he has given up. I WAS NOT EXTRODINARY ENOUGH TO KEEP AROUND.
I'm sick of being just ANOTHER ONE OF THOSE GIRLS. The one that you can take on dates and show off and kiss and WHATEVER. THEN THE NEXT DAY, YOU CAN GO OUT WITH WHOEVER YOU WANT! I'm feeling objectified!!! YEAH! GO AHEAD! INTRODUCE ME TO YOUR ENTIRE FAMILY! MAKE ME FALL IN LOVE THEM! TREAT ME LIKE A GIRLFRIEND... but you would never call me one!
Because that gives you the freedom to run off with the next Barbie who flutters her eyelashes at you! I am nothing more than convenience to you. But I still stick around. WHY? (other than I'm an IDIOT) Because you make me feel SPECIAL! (get ready for some serious sarcasm) I shouldn't need a title or ANY type of commitment to make me happy! RIGHT? I shouldn't have to be upset when the guy I'm falling in love with goes on dates with other girls on Sat. nights. Its NO BIG DEAL right? He likes me... because he SAYS SO!!! SAYS SO! WELL I DONT BELIEVE IT! IF YOU LIKE ME YOU WANT TO BE WITH ME! SO SAY YOU DONT LIKE ME AND MOVE ON WITH IT! Because I like you to much to let YOU go, and I WOULD fight for you. I hate that I feel temporary. I feel typical.
You tell me that I'm beautiful, and amazing, and smart. I don't want to be told that I'm beautiful anymore. Because I'm used to it. IT DOESNT EFFECT ME ANYMORE. And Because you say it to every girl. And I don't want to be EVERY GIRL typical beautiful in your eyes. You say that I am a REALLY good kisser, but SHE can take your breath away too. WELL THAT IS LAME! I THINK YOU ARE THE HOTTEST GUY WHO HAS EVER TRIED TO DATE ME AND I HAVEN'T FELT SO MUCH AUTOMATIC CHEMISTRY AS WHEN I FIRST KISSED YOU IN A LONG TIME! AND I MEAN IT! ...I am just typical to you. I don't want to be just some beautiful girl in your eyes. I want to be THE MOST BEAUTIFUL AND MOST AMAZINGLY INCREDIBLE GIRL YOU HAVE EVER MET.
...But I know I'm not and I'm sorry I allowed myself to believe otherwise.
I guess I'm sick of being told how WONDERFUL I am and being put up on a pedestal, especially a pedestal that falls so fast. "YOURE BEAUTIFUL. I LOVE YOU. BLADY BLADY BLAH BLAH... DROP." -boys are lame. I don't want to be put up on a pedestal any more, because I have a fear of pedestals now. They are no more than wishful thinking. I don't want someone who puts me on a pedestal. I want someone who puts my heart in the sky. (I AM CHEEZY!!!) Someone Who makes me feel free and not confined to my BEAUTY or my AMAZINGNESS. But someone who loves me unconditionally, even if I'm stupid or ugly sometimes!
I want someone to make me feel not so typically pretty and typically amazing like ALL of the other girls he's ever dated. I don't want to be the girl who can be replaced. I want him to tell me that I am THE ONLY ONE HE WOULD EVER WANT TO BE WITH BECAUSE HE COULD NOT IMAGINE ANYONE WITH MORE WONDER OR BEAUTY THAN ME.
....And I want him to mean it...
Dec 17, 2008
Newbie!
Soo....Brittany finally talked me into doing one of these.
Just a heads up there are some pretty crazy and random things that tumble around in my head so beware!
Unlike all of my cute friends from work that have these I am a loaner! I don't have a cute boyfriend or husband that i can post cute pictures of, so...ya get ramdom cute ones that i like. haha but that is yet to come.
Just a heads up there are some pretty crazy and random things that tumble around in my head so beware!
Unlike all of my cute friends from work that have these I am a loaner! I don't have a cute boyfriend or husband that i can post cute pictures of, so...ya get ramdom cute ones that i like. haha but that is yet to come.
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