Why...

...is it that when you think your over someone they pop up and you get all twitterpated and think maybe it could still work? Then.... you see him with another girl and he looks so happy and you want to be happy for him but part of you wishes you were that girl!?
Right now part of me wants to give back all of the things i have treasured up from when we were together and all the memories i have written down just to show him how much i cared and how much it still means to me and hope that he will feel the same. The other part of me wants to Burn it all and forget it all ever happened. But I cant bring myself to do either one so they just sit and collect dust until I'm feeling sorry for myself and go through it all and wish that it was all still the same! But its not and i have to find a way hide all of these feelings and live with it.

INCUBUS!!

Well my older brother Jordyn found some cheap VIP tickets to go to this concert but only bought 2! So i thought i would ask him if he would take me, it was such a good idea. I told him that he needed to take me because i knew he was going to miss me for the 18 months i was gone on the mission and it would be a good time to just hang out and be brother and sister! but unfortunately he wasn't buying it! I was soo bumbed!
I really wanted to go but didn't have any money :0( I had kinda given up on it all and figured i wasn't going to get to see em till after i got back...
but then .....i get this txt on Wednesday and was asked if i wanted to go to the Incubus concert the next day! It was kinda weird...this guy i haven't ever met before got my number and I guess he thought i was cute for some strange reason, and wanted me to go with him! So we go and im am trying to just be myself and have fun cuz usually i HATE blind dates they are soo awkward! Turns out we had a BLAST probably the best concert ever!! Here are a few pictures of the fun night! Brandon Boyd is such a good lookin man! I have a secret obsession with his "bad boy" image yumm!! So here ya go! haha

My brother and his friend Alex are the two in the back on the right!















SUCH AN AMAZING CONCERT!!

Holy Slackey McSlacker!!! FYI Picture overload!

My Sister in Law Brynn loves to play dress up with Karleigh! I had to show off her cute pictures!!

Just a Few more!!

HAHA gotta LOVE it!!

**The 4th of July!!!**

I had so much fun just spending the day with my family up at the park!

So many fun memories!

EFY!!!!

I had such a blast!! I got to know some pretty amazing kids and feel of their spirits and feel God's love for each of them! They taught me soo much through example. I Loved every single day and wish it didn't have to come to and end!

Here are just a few pictures of my AMAZING week!!!

Tyler is Such a stud! He was the Smallest boy at EFY!

Me Reese and Tom!!

Our "date" in the hall with Starbutst!!

Me and my 4 little Shadows

QUINCY!!

I got my whole group on here with their favorite flavor of ice cream i miss them all so much! we had soo much fun!

Me and my Girls

Me and Abbey

Our whole group "Speak Somewhat!"

Lauren!!

My Fav. 4!

A boy did these in a matter of minutes with..... .....spray paint!!

Me and most of my Girls!!

Cole and i just wanted to go home!

Shaeley and Tyler matched that day!

Me and Hayley!

Just bein goofy girls!

Time to say goodnight!

YAAY! i love button up Wednesday and Cassi!

This kid looked soo much like Mason!

FUN at LAGOON!

We all went to Lagoon and had so much fun with the kids and to see karleigh be soo brave and go on all of the rides and not be one bit scared!

WEEE!

Just Chillin in the Shade!

Karleigh and Kohen on the Marry-Go-Round!

FASTER FASTER!!

Camping down at Strawberry!

June was soo much fun!! we went camping with a bunch of people from my mom's side of the family and just had a blast four wheeling and enjoying the outdoors!! Even though it rained most of the time! i was still a blast!

Papa and Kohen!

Lets go DADDY!!

MY MOM!!

Well since its mothers day this week i thought i would let you all know how much i La La LOVE her! Some days i get a little frustrated with here but who doesn't from time to time...She is SO loving and giving and always puts herself last! I look up to her SO much she might think I'm lying when i say this but she is everything i want to be when I'm a mom. I believe that in the pre-mortal life i chose who i wanted to me my mom! I know that i chose her because i knew she would have high expectations for me and push me to be my best self and that i would have to work hard through my whole life. Some days its really hard to live up to it but i know its worth it to have her approval. I know that she loves me no matter what I become because I'm hers!

The past few days have been rough with trying to make my own decision with what i want to do with my life and i want to do it all on my own and learn from it but it hard when she thinks that i should do otherwise and we argue and there is tension but with all our differences and arguments and silly fights in the end i will ALWAYS ALWAYS love her no matter what! She is the BEST mom, grandmother, cook, friend and example!!