MY MOM!!

Well since its mothers day this week i thought i would let you all know how much i La La LOVE her! Some days i get a little frustrated with here but who doesn't from time to time...She is SO loving and giving and always puts herself last! I look up to her SO much she might think I'm lying when i say this but she is everything i want to be when I'm a mom. I believe that in the pre-mortal life i chose who i wanted to me my mom! I know that i chose her because i knew she would have high expectations for me and push me to be my best self and that i would have to work hard through my whole life. Some days its really hard to live up to it but i know its worth it to have her approval. I know that she loves me no matter what I become because I'm hers!

The past few days have been rough with trying to make my own decision with what i want to do with my life and i want to do it all on my own and learn from it but it hard when she thinks that i should do otherwise and we argue and there is tension but with all our differences and arguments and silly fights in the end i will ALWAYS ALWAYS love her no matter what! She is the BEST mom, grandmother, cook, friend and example!!

I'm Engaged!!!

HAHAHA

K so...... To fill y'all in on the DRAMA! I didn't' think it was too bad and i thought it was getting better but after last night i found out that I was only at the "tip of the Ice Burger"! This is all so ridiculous!

K so the guys i play Volleyball with every Monday and Thursday there is Po, Brian, Cheif, and Swander....i met them all through Brian. Brian and i met when i worked at Quilted Bear, he liked a girl i worked with that was engaged to someone else and he would txt me and try to know more about her and ended up likin me so we dated and hung out ALL the time ( this was about 2 maybe 3 years ago) i thought everything was goin great then he got weird and "needed space"...so i didnt talk to him and then after that he randomly would pop up and wanna hang out then dissapere again.....about a month ago he invited me to come play volleyball with him and all of his friends. We all got along great untill everyone found out that Po had a crush on me and Brian got weird again and wouldnt talk to me when we would play or hang out. i finally just asked him if i did something wrong to make him not wanna talk to me. He told me that he and Po had had drama over them both liking a girl before so he was just gonna ignore me and i thought that was bull crap cuz i still have feelings for Brian and dont know Po at all!

I knew Po liked me so i let him take me out for dinner once and told him i didn't want anythin serious just a friendship and he was okay with that but i guess was jealous of Brian and what we had and been trhough and how close we were that he wanted to make up stories that he and i were ENGAGED! but that I was still going on long drives with Brian! like some "tramp" oh and it all started with me liking both of them and not being able to decide who i liked so i was with both of them creating a "love triangle"! uggh! im soo soo sick of all of this!! Please help if you have any suggestions! Cuz I have no idea what to do!

PS Im meeting up with Pete tomorrow! im excited but kinda worried about what i need to talk to him a bout i might chicken out and not say anything...i just want my husband to find me and say im the one you are looking for and we need to get married and just have it all work out with NO drama or guessing games or any of that crap!

Tomorrow is the BIG day!

Well tomorrow at 11:30 we are going to drop my BEST friend off at the MTC! I am soo sad to see him go! He doesn't seem old enough to go! Pretty sure im gonna cry my eyes out like a baby! No matter how i try not to its gonna happen!

He is the best little brother anyone could ask for!

He will be an AMAZING missionary!

I'm so proud of him and the decisions he has made in his life to lead up to this point! I'm Excited to hear of all the fun adventures he will face in the next 2 years!

He will grow and learn SOOO much!

Love ya little bro!

17 Again

I went and saw this movie on Saturday night with some friends and i LOVED it! It was funny and sad at parts and there was some really nice eye candy!

Call me crazy but i think Zac Efron is sooo good lookin in this movie!! mmmmm!

UUGGH!

I am soo sick of DRAMA! How come people are soo worried about themselves and and have to run their mouth and cause all of this nonsense, Or have to assume things and make me feel like crap?

Can't we all just get along?
All I want to do is make friends!

That's all I can handle right now...

Sunday!!

I loved conference! These men and women of God always have the spirit of guidance and comfort! I have been in this church all my life. I am still amazed and humbled by the fact that the messages will enlighten and lift me in new ways, here are some of my favorite quotes from their talks!

"Though the storm clouds may gather, though the rains may pour down upon us, our knowledge of the gospel and our love of our Heavenly Father and our Savior will comfort and sustain us,"

"There will be nothing in this world that can defeat us. My beloved brothers and sisters, fear not. Be of good cheer. The future is as bright as your faith."
-President Thomas S Monson

"In the world today we face difficulties and challenges, some of which can seem truly daunting. However, with God on our side we cannot fail,"

Firsts!

Soo once again i saw this on Jossi's page and im going to copy her! Here goes!
1. Who was your FIRST prom date? Aaron Penrod
2. Do you still talk to your FIRST love? No :o( He's "too busy with school"
3. What was your FIRST alcoholic drink? Vodka and Cranberry hehe jk i never have had anything alcoholic! sorry to scare you mom!
4. What was your FIRST job? Maw's dry Cleaners
5. What was your FIRST car? Green Ford Focus
6. Who was the FIRST person to text you today? Nicole
7. Who is the FIRST person you thought of this morning? Myself haha lol
8. Who was your FIRST grade teacher? Mrs. Tremea!
9. Where did you go on your FIRST ride on an airplane? Disney Land
10. Who was your FIRST best friends and do you still talk? Alex Dehart and Carli Burch, Alex no Carli Kinda
11. Where was your FIRST sleepover? My Cousin Haley's
12. Who was the FIRST person you talked to today? My Mom
13. Whose wedding were you in the FIRST time?My cousin's Jeff and Paula!
14. What was the FIRST thing you did this morning? Went Pee
15. What was the FIRST concert you ever went to? Backstreet Boys
16. FIRST tattoo? don't have one
17. FIRST piercing? my ears
18. FIRST foreign country you've been to? Mexico
19. FIRST movie you remember seeing? Beauty and the Beast
20. When was your FIRST detention? Never
21. What was the FIRST state you lived in? New Hampshire
22. Who was your FIRST roommate? never had one lol
23. If you had one wish, what would it be? A never ending supply of Money!
24. What is something you would learn if you had the chance? Spanish, ASL,a doubel full! That would be cool!
25. Who do you think will be the next person to post this?Probably no one. don't wanna get my hopes up lol jk

Thanks Jossi

Jossi Had this on her blog and i haven't posed for a long time so i thought i would do this. SOO here ya go.
What is your salad dressing of choice? RANCH!
What is your favorite sit-down restaurant? Texas Roadhouse!
What food could you eat for 2 weeks straight and not get sick of it? cold cereal and Nachos
What are your pizza toppings of choice? green peppers, olives, and mushrooms,Ham and lots of cheese
What do you like to put on your toast? butter
How many televisions are in your house? 4What color cell phone do you have? White
Have you ever had anything removed from your body? Nope
What is the last heavy item you lifted? Stupid coin bags at work
Have you ever been knocked unconscious? yes! my brothers were pretty rough with me! lol
If it were possible, would you want to know the day you were going to die? NO!
If you could change your name, what would you change it to? Karsyn or Kayleigh! haha just for Danny's sake!
Would you drink an entire bottle of hot sauce for $1000? Sure!
How many pairs of flip flops do you own? Too many to count
Last time you had a run-in from the cops? lol 2 weeks ago He was HOT!
Last person you talked to? Brittany and Carli
Last person you hugged? My Suga Mama
Favorite Season? autumn, by far!
Holiday? I love My Birthday and Halloween oh and Christmas:)
Day of the week? Sunday and Saturday
Month? September
First place you went this morning? work, duh lol
What's the last movie you saw? Nick and Nora's infinite play list
Do you smile often? Yeah i guess


QUESTIONS!!!!!!!!!!!
1) Do you always answer your phone? no haha
2) It's four in the morning and you get a text message,who is it? a friend who's is just going to have to wait! lol
3) If you could change your eye color what would it be? My eye color does change :o)
4) What flavor drink do you get at Sonic? Lemonberry slush.
5)Do you own a digital camera? no but in the past year i have gone through 3!!
6)Have you ever had a pet fish? no
7) Favorite Christmas song? Deck the Halls by SheDasie!
8) What's on your wish list for your birthday? right now? Money for school!! :o)
9) Can you do push ups? Yeah like 500! LOL JK
10) Can you do a chin up? Couldn't do it if my life depended on it! lol
11) Does the future make you more nervous or excited? Very excited!
12) Do you have any saved texts? yeah haha what kind of question is that? lol
13) Ever been in a car wreck? Yes i dream about it all the time
14) Do you have an accent? nope I wish I did
15) What is the last song to make you cry? I don't remember what its called.
16) Plans tonight? Zach's is taking me to play volleyball with his Boyfriend! lol
17) Have you ever felt like you hit rock bottom? many many times but not lately!
18) Name 3 things you bought yesterday? I can't I didn't buy anything Big surprise
19) Have you ever been given roses? yes
20) Current worry? Money!
21) Current hate right now? nothing except work stuff!! but that's kind of constant
22) Met someone who changed your life? yeah, a few of them
23) How did you bring in the New Year? Partying it up!
24) What song represents you? no clue how about you answer this one!
25) Name three people who might complete this? haha no idea
26) What were you doing at 12 AM last night? Sleeping!
27) What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up? ALREADY!?! UUGGH! Its soo COLD!

I Love my Friends!!

So im just here at work thinking about how much fun i have had the past month! My friends are the BEST! I love them all! They all make me soo happy and make life soo much fun!

Dear Dentist Office Receptionist,

You suck at your job! For my last appointment you scheduled me to come in at 11:50 called me that morning and changed it on me!! Yesterday you scheduled me and appontment to come in on Thursday and called me this morning to change it to next week!!! You really need to learn how to do you job i sick of planning on it and you messing everything up! If you could work on that i would really appreciate it!
Thanks a bunch!

...so...

I hate being confused!
How could someone just show up and do that to me!?
I was just getting use to how my life was and he just HAD to come and mess it all up! I don't understand any of it! Nicole if you are reading this i REALLY need to talk to you! ASAP!
On a lighter note...I'm going to Vegas for the first time this weekend! i really think it will help and clear my head! UUGGH!!!

WHY WHY WHY!?!?

Why is it that right when you think your over someone and you don't care anymore they send you cute little messages that makes you care again, but you don't want to because you know if you do the same thing will happen!?!? UUGH! I'm so sick of guys! I wish I could see 10 years into my future and just see who I end up marring so I won't have to waste my time on all of these jerks and losers! And just look for him! It would make life soo much easier!

Valentimes Day!

I pretty much have the best older brother!
So last night my mom was giving us crap about being single on valentines...
He leaves to go to the store. When he walks in the door he says "If you're single raise your hand!" So I raised mine because i obviously am and then he wips out some good friends of mine Mr. Ben and Jerry! And hands me one and says its okay to be single when you have these guys as friend's! Haha he makes me laugh so hard. Thanks Jordyn! ;o)

Im pretty excited for my fun filled single night..
Some girls in my ward are having a bunch of single people over to make dinner and go to a movie but im hoping that we just end up staying in i really don't want to drive in this yucky weather!
If it gets really bad i might just say at home and watch some movies alone! We'll see...

I don't like 8, so I did 6!

Things I'm passionate about:
1. Family
2. Church
3. Friends
4. My Bug
5. Being myself
6. Volleyball

Words/Phrases I use often:

1. Adios muchachos!
2. Slam BAM thank you mam!
3. Hi What can I do for ya?
4. What The....
5. Are you Kidding me?
6. Oh my...


Things I want to do before I die:

1. Go to London and Scotland
2. Go sky diving
3. Learn to snowboard
4. Live on the Coast
5. Have a Family
6. Learn how to Surf

Things I want/or need:Starting with wants

1. A house with no payments
2. To finish school and have it all paid for
3. A Special Someone
4. A lot of Money
5. Summer to come ASAP!
6. A huge Wardrobe with work appropriate stuff! haha


Things I've learned from the past

1. Parents really do know best
2. Don't lie it Always comes back around
3. It doesn't matter what people think of you; only what you think of yourself.
4. Where there's a will there's a way
5. BE YOURSELF
6. Never say can't


Restaurants I love: (in order of yumminess)

1. Tepayaki
2. The Pizza Factory
3. Texas Road House
4. Olive Garden
5. Applebee's
6. Iggy's


Shows I love to Watch: (when I can find the time)

1. The Hills
2. How I Met Your Mother
3. Full House
4. Medium
5. Cold Case
6. Without a Trace

Life...UGH!

I am havin such a hard time with all of my options and what to do...
-Should I go to school at Weber State and go into education.
- Go to Hair School.
-Move away and go to school.
-Go away and be a nanny.
- Go on a Mission.
So many decisions and no money!! ugh!
My tax return better be pretty big this year!

This Weekend

So Friday i went on a date with this kid and I'm pretty sure its going to be the last..He was soo weird, i have gone with him before but he wasn't ever like that! We went to Iggie's with a bunch of his "friends" and they all kinda ignored him whenever he talked and just accepted it. We ran into my brother and his wife and and her parents and i guess when we were walking out he stared my brother down and was just a jerk.. then the rest of the night he tried to put his arms around me like we were together! EWW i hate that more than anything!! but other than that i had a pretty good time. I wasn't in the best mood because of events that happened earlier that day so i had a lot on my mind and i was super mad and super sad and didn't talk much but after dinner we went to "Taken", i LOVE that movie! it was soo good!

On Saturday I went to dinner with my friend Andy and we went to the Sonora Grill! As we walked in the door I heard a deep voice say "Hey Paige!" i kinda scared me and i turned around and it was one of my VERY BEST FRIENDS Nicole and Dallon! So we ended up eating with them and had such a good time! our waiter was awesome and just made it soo fun!

Tucson Arizona!!

Thats where Mason will be serving for two years, speaking Spanish!! Im so excited for him and know he will do awesome!! He doesn't leave till April 22, so i have a little more time with him!

Pet Peevs!

1. People who think that they are better than others because of money or their job or who they know or what they wear!

2. People who think that they need to share their negative opinions or assumptions of others to everyone around them!

3. Liars who know that they are wrong and still insist on lying even thought they know you know the truth...

4. People who make plans with you to hang out and talk it up and are all ready to do it and then back out at the VERY last minute. And then you are stuck doin nothing!

A little about me..

I Saw this on someones blog and thought it was a cute way for you to get to know more about me

1. Answer the question
2. Type your answer into Google image search
3. pick a picture that fits

Age you will be on your next birthday:

Favorite Food:

A place I would like to visit:

Where I live:

One of my favorite places:

Favorite Holiday:(my birthday)

Past Pet: Weimaraner

Favorite animal:

Bad Habit:

Favorite Color:

Favorite Drink:

MASON!

My little brother is getting ready to go on his mish and we're thinkin that he will get his call either this week or next...im so excited for him to finally go but
i am goin to MISS him sooo much! He is my BEST friend! ha here are a few pictures of us growing up.. we did EVERYTHING together!

haha i am such a slacker!

TaGged!!!

What I was doing 10 years ago: fighting with my brothers, and playin softball, hangin out with my best buds, and just bein a girl....well kinda haha

Five things on my to-do list today: make it through work, find something to do so im not so bored at work, go home, make some dinner, look for info for school.

Snacks I like: Peanut Butter M&m's , Sunflower Seeds, Otter Pops, Pretzels, and Popcorn.

Places I've lived: Riverdale Utah............

Five things I would do if I had billions: Pay off all of mine and my family's debts and give them some, go to school, buy a house, and save it have a HUGE wedding when i find him. And.....share with anyone that needs it.

People I want to know more about: My grandma, Pete, My parents, my little brother Gus.

*sNoW*

So i think that i really want to learn how to snowboard! I think it would be so much fun. I keep saying I want to learn how but I never do anything about it and I'm pretty sure this is the year! I'm going to buck up and stop bein a wuss and just do it! If any of you have any tips please let me know.
I hear the first time is pretty rough and that you fall a lot but thats a givin with me. I don't know if i should just rent everything for the first couple of times or scope out KSL and find a good deal...well see! Ill keep ya posted!

Christmas!

So tonight i went to FHE with my singles ward and everyone brought some presents for a family in the area that weren't able to afford a Christmas this year and we wrapped them and took them to em! the kids were already asleep so we weren't able to see their reaction to everything but the mom was so gracious for everything and every time someone brought in a bag she would just cry and say thank you. You could really tell how much they needed this. When we walked in to their house you could just see how little they had and i just felt so bad. But the parents were both just so happy.
It made me really grateful for all that i have and after seeing how little they had i felt bad that i wasn't giving more.. i only gave 3 shirts for one of the little boys.
I am so blessed!! My parents took me Christmas shopping and i got quite a bit compared to these boys...i mean when i was their age, we got tickets to go to Disneyland.
I am so blessed and love my parents for all that they have sacrificed for me and my brothers! They are the greatest!
Just remember that the best gift is the gift of giving!
MerRy chRisTmaS eVeRyonE

Life

Its sad when people you know become people you knew...when you can walk right past someone like they were never a big part of your life…how you used to be able to talk for hours and now you can barely even look at them with your wanting to cry...but i guess its like people always say...life goes on...you meet new people and make new memories...and pray you never have to go through that kind of heart ache again....

Fairy Tale!

I hate boys. I HATE them. I hate that they can be so deceiving. I hate how they can make you feel amazing and like you are worth the world, then the next day they can just DROP YOU like you mean nothing to them. They make you feel so typical like you were never anything special to them. Sometimes they even go as far as to make you feel like they never knew you...
I'm used to typical words and typical actions. I'm used to: "you're beautiful" "You're so much fun to be around." I'm used to: hold my hand, kiss me, tell me what I WANT to hear. Typical.
BUT EVERY ONCE IN A WHILE I fall for the FLUFF and I fall in love, and I am made to believe that the guy is in love with me back. "I love you. I want to go to the temple with you. I promise well be together FOREVER." THEN THE NEXT DAY THEY DUMP ME! FOREVER MY ***.
I have a hard time understanding why I was worth leaving. How could I feel SO MUCH for him, and he feels NOTHING at all? Why is he leaving when he should be fighting to KEEP ME if I am everything he says I am. HE SAID I WAS AMAZING AND BEAUTIFUL. WHAT ELSE DO YOU NEED? WHY ARE YOU LETTING GO? Why wasn't I worth fighting for? Why am I not good enough when you led me to believe I was?
I have a hard time believe words that he said... because he left. He NEVER loved me. Because to me, real love is eternal. So he never loved me because he has given up. I WAS NOT EXTRODINARY ENOUGH TO KEEP AROUND.
I'm sick of being just ANOTHER ONE OF THOSE GIRLS. The one that you can take on dates and show off and kiss and WHATEVER. THEN THE NEXT DAY, YOU CAN GO OUT WITH WHOEVER YOU WANT! I'm feeling objectified!!! YEAH! GO AHEAD! INTRODUCE ME TO YOUR ENTIRE FAMILY! MAKE ME FALL IN LOVE THEM! TREAT ME LIKE A GIRLFRIEND... but you would never call me one!
Because that gives you the freedom to run off with the next Barbie who flutters her eyelashes at you! I am nothing more than convenience to you. But I still stick around. WHY? (other than I'm an IDIOT) Because you make me feel SPECIAL! (get ready for some serious sarcasm) I shouldn't need a title or ANY type of commitment to make me happy! RIGHT? I shouldn't have to be upset when the guy I'm falling in love with goes on dates with other girls on Sat. nights. Its NO BIG DEAL right? He likes me... because he SAYS SO!!! SAYS SO! WELL I DONT BELIEVE IT! IF YOU LIKE ME YOU WANT TO BE WITH ME! SO SAY YOU DONT LIKE ME AND MOVE ON WITH IT! Because I like you to much to let YOU go, and I WOULD fight for you. I hate that I feel temporary. I feel typical.
You tell me that I'm beautiful, and amazing, and smart. I don't want to be told that I'm beautiful anymore. Because I'm used to it. IT DOESNT EFFECT ME ANYMORE. And Because you say it to every girl. And I don't want to be EVERY GIRL typical beautiful in your eyes. You say that I am a REALLY good kisser, but SHE can take your breath away too. WELL THAT IS LAME! I THINK YOU ARE THE HOTTEST GUY WHO HAS EVER TRIED TO DATE ME AND I HAVEN'T FELT SO MUCH AUTOMATIC CHEMISTRY AS WHEN I FIRST KISSED YOU IN A LONG TIME! AND I MEAN IT! ...I am just typical to you. I don't want to be just some beautiful girl in your eyes. I want to be THE MOST BEAUTIFUL AND MOST AMAZINGLY INCREDIBLE GIRL YOU HAVE EVER MET.
...But I know I'm not and I'm sorry I allowed myself to believe otherwise.
I guess I'm sick of being told how WONDERFUL I am and being put up on a pedestal, especially a pedestal that falls so fast. "YOURE BEAUTIFUL. I LOVE YOU. BLADY BLADY BLAH BLAH... DROP." -boys are lame. I don't want to be put up on a pedestal any more, because I have a fear of pedestals now. They are no more than wishful thinking. I don't want someone who puts me on a pedestal. I want someone who puts my heart in the sky. (I AM CHEEZY!!!) Someone Who makes me feel free and not confined to my BEAUTY or my AMAZINGNESS. But someone who loves me unconditionally, even if I'm stupid or ugly sometimes!
I want someone to make me feel not so typically pretty and typically amazing like ALL of the other girls he's ever dated. I don't want to be the girl who can be replaced. I want him to tell me that I am THE ONLY ONE HE WOULD EVER WANT TO BE WITH BECAUSE HE COULD NOT IMAGINE ANYONE WITH MORE WONDER OR BEAUTY THAN ME.
....And I want him to mean it...

Newbie!

Soo....Brittany finally talked me into doing one of these.
Just a heads up there are some pretty crazy and random things that tumble around in my head so beware!
Unlike all of my cute friends from work that have these I am a loaner! I don't have a cute boyfriend or husband that i can post cute pictures of, so...ya get ramdom cute ones that i like. haha but that is yet to come.